He has to help beat the Socs for Johnny. Now, Ponyboy pictures the Southern gentlemen looking like both Johnny and Dally. At home, Ponyboy tells the other greasers about Johnny's death and Dally's disappearance. Don't remember how Johnny was your buddy, don't remember that he didn't want to die. Pony vows never to finish the book. Ponyboy worries that maybe, in his delirious state, he hasn't been asking for Darry at all, but he doesn't remember, and doesn't ask Darry. His hesitation after speaking with Randy and his decision to take five aspirin before the fight show that he is emotionally and physically unprepared for the ordeal.
There was a stricken silence. Pony worries that when he was delirious, he only called for Soda and his parents--not for Darry. I could picture hundreds of boys living on the wrong sides of cities, boys with black eyes who jumped at their own shadows. That's why you wouldn't eat anything while you were sick. What would it be like in a different bed, in a different room? Best of all, don't think. Ponyboy feels a sinking feeling when he sees the other greasers. Like he never has understood why we went all-out for studying.
As these events are happening, Pony's condition is worsening. His eyes were closed, but when the door shut behind me he opened them, and I suddenly wondered if my own eyes looked as feverish and bewildered as his. The next day at lunch, Ponyboy goes to the grocery store with Steve and Two-Bit for candy bars and Cokes. Ponyboy feels this tension within him before the fight. He is gunned down as his gang watches, knowing that Dally always gets what he wants and this time Dally wants to be dead.
Ponyboy starts shaking; his heart is beating loudly and he feels as if he will fall over. Answers to be discovered and then lived in this transformative year of delight and self-discovery. There was a stricken silence. What was he talking about? Ponyboy collapses at the lot, as his brothers and gang rush to help him. I remembered his voice: I been carryin' a heater. Analysis: Chapters 9—10 Underlying the struggle between the Socs and the greasers is the struggle between the instinct to make peace and the social obligation to fight.
Through all this, Ponyboy dizziness and weakness intensifies. Everyone reaches the lot at the same time: Dally, the gang, and the police. Suddenly it wasn't only a personal thing to me. Eventually, a concerned stranger offers to drive him home. My heart was pounding in slow thumps, throbbing at the side of my head, and I wondered if everyone else could hear it. Light is often connected with enlightenment. Ponyboy realizes that Dally had wanted them to kill him.
After the hearing, Ponyboy becomes detached and depressed. Maybe that's why they're all looking at me, I thought, they can hear my heart beating. This wreck's been through worse. Everyone reaches the lot at the same time: Dally, the gang, and the police. Like he never has understood why we went all-out for studying.
But I knew that was what he wanted, even as the lot echoed with the cracks of shots, even as I begged silently--- Please, not him. And the coach was counting on me. It ain't loaded, but it sure does held a bluff. Then Soda gets into bed with him and they both fall asleep before Darry returns with the soup. I mean like he was before. But yesterday was years ago.
He was sitting on the edge of the bed watching me. I thought maybe I didn't ask for Darry. But I had a sick feeling that maybe I hadn't called for him while I was delirious, maybe I had only wanted Sodapop to be with me. He was asking for Johnny. .